all dressed up with no where to go

UNTIL I COME HOME..

ONE SIX PAGE RESEARCH PAPER
READ PHILADELPHIA FIRE
READ FOOLS CROW
READ TRACKS
READ IN THE TIME OF THE BUTTERFLIES
ONE ASTRONOMY FINAL
ONE NONFICTION MEMOIR
ONE LIT FINAL
ONE JOURNALISM QUIZ
ONE JOURNALISM FINAL
ONE Y-BUDDIES MEETING
ONE POEM
ONE LETTER
ONE STORY
ONE EXTRA CREDIT ASSIGNMENT
ONE MEETING WITH MY TA
..A HECK OF A LOT MORE READING

AND VOILA! CHRISTMAS!!

ok any one who reads this from the old soco boards (probably no one).. could you send me some something corporate rarities.. i don't even have konstantine on this computer!

Ganked a background picture from getty images.. Doo dee doo.

My itrip came today, but still no iPOD!

Going to the fair tonight (creepy carny's.. ahh)

WOCKA WOCKA WOCKA

Who needs the FONZIE, when you got the FOZZIE? eh, eh, eh????????

(make sure I never touch alcohol or drugs. I'm crazy enough already.)

Okay, I need a laptop for next year..

IBOOK? DELL? Noting over 1500 for sure. preferabbly around 1000-1200 or cheaper.. (I get discounts on IBM, Dell, and Apple through the u of m).. What do you all reccomend??

Yes, thats right Ross, Chandler, Rachel, Monica, Joey, and Phoebe only! Err, I mean FRIENDS ONLY. Mostly because I'm paranoid. Comment to be added.

My parents are watching CMT... hahaha. My Dad talks like a hick. "How long you gotta cook them ribs!?"

This end of high school stuff is a bit overwhelming.


LMAO!!

Your Boobies' Names Are: Mork and Mindy

THE SANDLOT 2!? WTF.

I woke up at two today. Yikes. Okay, so I'm still really tired, I have a headache, and I feel extremely weak. Anyone know what I'm talkin about? Just when you feel like absolute crap and you have no motivation to do all the stuff you should be? I haven't taken my medicine in a long time... Maybe that's it!?

I have this theory about myself. I'm never ever going to have a relationship beyond friendship with the opposite sex. I will die never even being kissed. That would be so depressing for me, to never have kids.

I'm terrified of the future. I don't believe in myself at all. I've shown no signs of changing. I just got my report card... Not good. Hopefully I don't get kicked out of the liberal arts program when they see my transcript.. Shit. Doubt it, though. Thank goodness for standardized tests ie ACTs. They save lazy, confused, messed up people like me from never getting in to college.

Looking at my journal entries, you could probably never believe I want to be a writer, eh? Oh well, I promise my stuff is better.

My self esteem has been through the floor lately. I need to fix that and shut the hell up.


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Forgot how much I loved this song!

I need to take a shower or something..


GOODNIGHT :)

I'm sitting around in my prom dress.

I intended to take pictures but my arch enemy (aka my mom) has once again kidnapped MY camera. Operation find a hiding spot for it is now in action. GAHHHHHHH. It wouldn't piss me off so much if she had bought it for me .. but no.. she had nothing to do with it.

My parents have always done this to me.. They steal money from me. My mom drained 1200 bucks from my savings account. Now I have 25 dollars in there. I didn't spend a whole summer being a nanny for nothing.

Sorry, I didn't mean for this to turn in to a rant but I cannnnnnnnnnnot wait to leave this house.

Wouldn't it make you mad if you worked and worked and had barely anything to show for it.. Because you're mom is a huge psychopathic bitch.

UGHH.. I've gone and got myself all worked up.

EDIT:: I kind of like this new LJ look I'm sportin'.. However typical it may be

Prom dress, oh prom dress I shall never find thee...



This picture. It looks like the guy is like "dance for me hooooooookarrrrr". I believe we are witnessing soemthing illegal. Oh, bluefly.com when will you clean your act up. Hrmmph. haha.


... I have been finally getting enough energy to do some stuff. One of those things is branching out on my musical tastes. I want my taste in everything to always be growing. YES!


Neutral Milk Hotel is good :)!

Emoticons, YOU HAVE TAKEN ME OVER. DAMN YOU. A big damn you to "the boy" too.

I love that kasper ad.. Beautiful.

I am sick. Blah.. I haven't been out of my house all day. I suppose it's not that big of a deal as it is currently rainy. I love the rain. I LOVE THUNDERSTORMS. I think they are very romantic.

Things that are romantic. A quite unintelligent list sporadically compiled by myself righhhht now.
1. Thunderstorms.
2. White cake with oodles of pink frosting.
3. Reading aloud a passage from a book or a poem.
4. Acoustic guitars.
5. Floral prints (not old lady couch floral prints)
6. Big sunglasses and head scarves.
7. Puddles.
8. The Beatles.
9. Emulating movies/books.. Well good movies/books.
10. Banana pancakes.
11. Showing up unannounced on my doorstep to profess your love for me/to ask me out/kiss me. When will this happen!?!?
12. The font "Georgia"
13. Italics.
14. Love notes (duh).

Among many other things.

I need to..oh how do you say it.. "grow a pair" as most crude adolescents would say.

Hrmmmph. Confidence.. One day.. YE SHALL BE MINE!

What is it "significant others", dating, the opposite sex or perhaps the same sex does to us?

We never used to go out on school nights, could never "hang out" on Sundays, didn't want to go out for lunch. Then wam bam thank you m'am, boys come along. Tuesday we're going out for coffee, Wednesday we're talking in park, Friday we're going to a movie..Sunday afternoon we'll go out for dinner. Blow off your friends, forget your morals, screw your parents..TEENAGE LOVE IS IN TOWN.

This is what I feel happens in high school.

Oh damn, Dad's calling me to eat...

She changes your mind when you see the joy in her eyes.
It makes you feel.
She draws your eyes from all the things that
have made you numb and makes you feel.
If I could open up my heart and let her out
I would never have to sing her name aloud.
It was your "hello" that kept me hanging on
every word and you "good-bye" that keeps me listening
for your voice around each corner.
I'll sing songs to help me stay up all night.
I don't want to go to sleep.
I'll sing songs and hope you're listening
carefully and know exactly what I mean.
It's the song you must seek out when your
night has just begun.
In the distance you can find the lips from
which was sung a melody.

"...that's the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool."

Skipping school, eff me.

I think the world is a beautiful place. One day I'm gonna contribute to this planet. Mmmhmm.

Books, movies, songs, any kind of art. All of this I've surrounded myself has allowed me to harbor my hopeless romanticism. I'm not sure if anything will ever live up to the expectations I've built up for love. I'm so afraid I will never be loved.. Never be in love. When you're own mother tells you she doesn't really love you... That's scary. I'm afraid... But hey "live in love not in fear". I'm one messed up adolescent... Pfft.

( Life through lyrics... )

sung to the tune of my boyfriends back...

my mom is back in town and it really sucks a big one
hey ya hey ya
go back now.

!)*#@*&@UJFSOIU()!*#(@&#&$(@*)(!@)SJKLA:K!!!!!

I can't seem to feel anything but overwhelmed.. I felt happy for a bit of today.


GO AWAY STRESS.


Fock I screw everything up.

prom dress shopping sucks.

i need to find a seamstress.